Thursday, September 19, 2013

Letting go, going, gone.

Its been some time since I sat myself down and talked to myself. Its been some time since I sat in a room alone and heard my own heart beat, felt  my pulses throb, let the emotions gush and over flow like waves on me. Engulf me , toss me around a bit, froth on my senses until I felt like I was drowning. Test my ability to save myself from me. Let me suddenly find myself thrown on the shores of knowing not knowing I was there. Baking in the sun , getting the Vitamin D( D for Destruction) into the body of awareness. Burning my flesh into a million little pieces, till all that is left is a bare naked truth. Stripped off of all knowing. The remains, the ashes from the chaos, are seeds. Seeds of creation. From my own destruction, waited to sprout. Sprout into something new. So is this letting go?

Its also been some time since I wanted nothing. Nothing from this world, 

Thursday, September 5, 2013

Scatter

The heart beats
Beats faster than my thoughts
These thoughts are crimson
Crimson red
Red as her lips
Lips that kiss tired eyes
Eyes that have seen truth
Truth ripped apart and bare
Bare as that which trembles 
Trembles in the womb
The womb is a tomb
A tomb of dreams put to sleep
Sleeping with legs wide open
Open up and bloom
Bloom even in the cold winds
Winds of change
Change the heart beat
Beat is slower than now
Now is where we are
Are we really here?

Sunday, September 1, 2013

/ The bearable darkness of Being /

I have seen much more, felt much more, been much more, in the sheer darkness which follows destruction. 
I have been born again and shed worn out wings in the darkness.
I have learnt to make love to questions in the darkness. 
I have held hands with pain in the darkness. 
I have looked fear in the eye in the darkness. 
I have circled around as a dervish and felt the power of union in the darkness.
I have drank blood (thinking it was water) in the darkness.
I have seen no mirrors in the darkness which has made me comfortable in my skin, in the darkness.
I am lost in the darkness.
I am found in the darkness.
I am everything in the darkness.
~ Ray


Written on 25th of August, Dubai.